How do you know if you like someone?
The last time I liked someone was a boy back in the 5th grade. Whenever I was around him, I would blush like crazy, avoid his eyes and stutter. I acted like those stereotypical school girls and whenever I look back to those times, I’m embarrassed by actions.
Now, I’m in high school and I’m utterly confused. Here’s the thing, I know that a girl likes me. Me. As in a giant potato who loves hugs and can get super loud when hyper. Its kinda funny how she thinks I don’t know. She sits in a group a few feet behind me. I can hear her talking about me with her partner for math. When they do, it makes me smile though. Its cute. The thing is, I think she’s going to confess to me later today. I never received a confession before and never confessed to anyone, so I’m not really sure how it exactly works out but I do have a major problem, do I like her back?
I don’t blush and stutter like crazy when I’m around her. Maybe it’s because I read too many books and fanfiction, but should I feel like a lovesick fool they describe? Should I my heart beat super fast and my breaths become shorter when I see her? I don’t think I ever experienced that with her. Sometimes though, I would always look for her when I know she’s around. We do a lot of skinship like hugging, holding hands and touching each other’s hair so I don’t really know if that is consider romance. Is it?
Do I like her as a close friend? A girlfriend? Argh! I hope she doesn’t confess tonight at the homecoming football game because I really do need to sort myself out.